helplessness,angry and saddness..

[terri]

hi everyone..:075:
i'm so sorry to moan..as this is just not me..!!
i'm normally a very happy go lucky girl..and try to not let life get me down..
but i know you will all understand me at present...
but i just feel so helpless, angry and sad..
as you know my harley has been through so much already over the last few weeks..
and i feel totally alone..at the thought of in 2 months time( a month has already passed)..
if harley is still the same ..then we will be reffered to a specialist for a full elbow replacement..which will then result in even more staying in with him while he gets over major surgery..
i feel i need a miacle..and want too see instant results..which i'm not seeing..
on top of all this..harley now has a lump the size of a 50p come up on the back of his neck..he has not had a vaccination...he is due next month for this..
unless they gave him and injection in his neck when he was kept in the 3 days over 2 weeks ago..and it is a delayed reaction...
although vets never said..as he has his neck shaved for blood samples..his legs were both shaved for anesthectic and a drip..ect..
and on top of this his good front leg..is now showing a slight swelling around the joint just above his paw..this may be due to the fact he is carrying all his weight on his good front leg...
so if his good front leg goes along with his poorly other front leg..i'm not sure what will happen..
he is already on metacam once a day,tramadol 50mg 1-2 capsules a day,amantadine 100mg once a day at bedtime,, and they have put him back on synulox 250 mg 1.5 tablets ,twice a day..as vets and myself noticed a slight sweeling back in the poorly leg, when harley had his stiches out last week..
also not sure if its to do with all the medication..but he has sicked his pill up as well..

so am going to phone the vets in a while just to ask their advise..

thanks for listening...
love terri
x

[terri]

just phoned my vets..and i have an appointment tommorrow...
could have gone today..but a locum is on instead..so seeing my original vet tommorrow...
hopefully they can just give me the reasurrance i need right now...
thanks again for listening..
love terri
x

[Theresa]

Ill keep you in my thougts tommorow sweetie that the vets say something you want to hear :075:

[Tanya]

oh Terri, poor you and poor Harley :075::075: I hope the other lumps are just as you say, a reaction to what else is going on with him. Poor lad is going through it at the moment isn't he :(

This probably sounds very scary, but has the vet mentioned amputation at all? I know a lot of dogs do very well on 3 legs, they soon find their balance and get around easily......I think it's something I'd be considering, and he'd probably recover quicker from that then something like a full elbow replacement. Please excuse me if I sound insensitive, but was just wondering if the vet had explored this at all with you?

I hope things go ok with the vet tomorrow, and please moan away, that's what we are here for :075:

[Nessie]

Oh terri, we all need a moan now and again. And you are definately justified at the moment! Poor harley. Good luck at vets tomorrow. Hope he gives you some reassurance. x

[terri]

hi Tanya

amputation was only mentioned..when the vet was testing harley for bone cancer..
and as this is now a negative..it has not been mentioned since..
just a full elbow replacement..which we would have to be reffered for..
but now i'm not sure what will happen..as proir to this his other good front leg was coping well..and now we have nocited that the good front leg is swelling just above the paw...so if this goes..or he has trouble using both front legs..or if this is also arthritis starting in the other good front leg..i'm not sure..
as i said i'm feeling so helpless, angry, and sad...
plus he has this big lump come up on his neck..
and my vets are not on today..only a locum..and i don't like her much as she done a botch job on tillys spay...which resulted in a huge insicion..and a ruptured overy...

thanks for all allowing me to moann..
and for listnening..

love terri
x

[Fluffy]

oh terri,you poor poor thing,and harley xxxx
i,ll keep you both in my thoughts all day and send positive vibes to you ..hope all is going to be ok with your baby xxxxxxxxxlots of love xxxxxx

[Sandra]

Oh my goodness Terri, it never rains but it pours!

Poor Harley, he really has been through the mill recently, as have you. Feel free to moan away, we all know what it's like to have poorly pets, so many people don't understand the pain and anxiety you go through with beloved animals, particularly if they aren't "animal folks".

Keeping everything crossed that this is just a blip and that the latest troubles are a result of Harley's med regime etc.

[jean]

hope when you see the vet tommorrow it will be positive news. xx

[Rats and Dogs]

Oh Terri, I'm so sorry you are feeling so sad and worried, it's only natural though, given what you and Harley have been through recently. :054:

I hope the vet can reassure you, would they allow you to speak to a surgeon at the vet school or animal hospital regarding your options? It may also be worthwhile doing an internet search and reading up on it too, so that you can decide what you want to do regarding Harley's elbow.

Feel free to come on her and vent your frustrations and worry anytime you like, we all get like this, and it's better to let it all out. :078:

[Freckle Face]

Poor you and poor Harley. You will both be in my thoughts. :075::075:

[Gwen]

sorry you are having such a tough time. Keeping everything crossed for tomorrow x

[Queen Bee]

Terri - I can only echo what everyone else has posted.

I am thinking of you and Harley and really hope that thinks pick up soon

Big hugs from us :054::054::054::054::054:

[AngieBaby!]

I really hope you don't have to go through such turmoil for too much longer and that you'll soon be able to see light at the end of your tunnel:075:.

[lisalh]

I really hope you don't have to go through such turmoil for too much longer and that you'll soon be able to see light at the end of your tunnel:075:.

Wish there was something I could add to this to make it all easier for you, will be thinking of you xxx

[Penelope]

Keeping everything crossed for you Terri and hoping it will all be ok when you go to the vet...
Lots of love

[Helen]

Synolux makes Jarv puke so it could be a reaction to that - it's a big cocktail of drugs he's taking at the moment.

Hope he stabilises Terri, it's a terrible worry for you :054:

[Queen Bee]

Just posting again to say that I am thinking about you today.

Much love :051:

[terri]

hi everyone..:075:
thanks again for all your support and messages..

went to the vets last night..
and was told by my vet ..he feared harley had had a set back..and then showed me this huge black file..that they had been reading up on limb amputations and bone fusions..
i quickley said its not his leg this time as such but he seemed to be coming up in lumps and had been sick..
bascially the lump on the back of his neck is due to a reaction to the synulox injections they had given harley when he had to stay in the vets for 3 days..and it will go down in about 3-4 weeks..and he is not worried about it..( so that was a huge relief )..the swelling on his good front leg..they are not so sure on, but they assured me its not the joint on his good leg..and did'nt want to pull harley around anymore than they have too..so are just going to keep an eye on it..and monitor it..if it grows or gets bigger they will asperate it later on..
as for the sicking ..this is a side effect of the tramadol..as harley is on such a cocktail of medication at present..

but i'm so happy..as they have reduced harley medication as of last night..if he starts to limp again..they he will have to go back on all the medication a bit longer..
and its now time and down to harley now..
i also said i had brought a stoller for harley..and vet has said not to use it..as any jolt will undo all the good work so far..which is disappointing..so he is still totally restircted..
harley still has to be confined..no walks..apart from his toilet breaks..
which is a small price to pay..and i can live with this...
and i'm longing for the day i can evenetually get my gorgeous boy out walking again..
i know we still have a huge road of recovery to go along..but its so encouraging...
also the vet said..i have to really be strict with harley as once the tramadol and amatadine medication has been stopped..harley will not be so spaced out..and will now be wanting to do more..( thats going to be interesting..but again is fantastic news..)
so i'm so happy ( although i'm trying to contain my excitment...as i'm sure we are going to have a few steps/ paws backwards along the way..but you know what i mean)..
i don't think i have felt this happy since this all started..and i just hope and pray harley will adjust and be able to cope with soeme of the pain he will still be in..
but its so encourageing..
and i just hope and pray we never have to be faced...with either a full elbow replacement, limb amputation or a bone fusion..

so i just have to take it a day at a time..and i'm longing for the day i can finally take my boy out so he can start to be a dog again..
he has never once complained..i'm so proud of harley..he would also like to say a big thank you for all hsi well wishes..
and so would i..
so keep them postive vibes coming..as harley now adjusts with his medication being reduced, and he has to learn to use this leg..

so its so encouraging.and it is very much taking it a day at a time..
but i will get him back on this road to recovery..it may just take longer..
and vets want to see him next week to reasses him..

loadsa love terri
x

[Sandra]

It's great to hear some positive news about Harley. Keeping everything crossed that he copes well with the lower dose of pain meds and feels better for not being so spaced out - poor love. I guess to a certain extent he needs to build up his confidence about putting some weight on his poorly leg because he will obviously remember that it hurt like stink when he walked on it before.

It's a shame about the stroller though, at least being able to sit in it on your walks Harley would have felt like one of the gang. I'm pleased that they think the lump is due to the previous jabs, at least that's another thing to cross of your list of worries.

Sending healing hugs and vibes to your gorgeous boy.

[Tanya]

Glad to hear they aren't too concerened about the lumps terri, sending lots of healing thoughts for Harley for a good recovery over the next couple of months:075::075:

[Emparr]

Terri....please check there is no reaction to Penicillin or antibiotic. This happened to Lily once at the site of her injection, after minor surgery. They then gave her another jab thinking it was an abscess....and all hell let loose. We very nearly lost her. It may be totally different in your doggie's case....but just mention it.